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I got this from Pascal. One of the many personal Q&A you can find all over the internet, though this one actually looks like a nice idea.

Q: What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
A: I left the continent for a holiday in the USA, I've been driving cars (and getting my license), I left the country on my own to go to FOSDEM, had an actual (holiday) job for two weeks, and attended a punk concert.

Q: Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for the next year?
A: I don't remember any new year's resolutions.

Q: Did anyone close to you give birth?
A: No.

Q: Did anyone close to you die?
A: My granny died in 2008, less than a year after her husband.

Q: What countries/states did you visit?
A: In Germany, I travelled in Bavaria, to Rheinland-Pfalz and to NRW. I visited Belgium (Brussels), France (Paris), Austria (Tirol), England (Yorkshire), the USA (NY, PA, DC, MD, VA, MA, and maybe one or two other states)


Continue reading "Meme – Reflecting on 2008"

Years ago, I used Linux because it was new and interesting to me, and I had the time and motivation to just play around with it. The fact that I switched distributions all the time was a mark of that.

At some point or points in between, it might have been the freedom.

Now, the reason is: “Why not?”; I've used GNU/Linux for ages, I can almost always make it do what I want to do when I want it – it works. Windows or Mac OS X would probably also work just as well if I was as used to them as I am used to Linux. But I'm not.

I’ve created a gentoo overlay at rsync://ewanm89.co.uk/ewanm89/

Currently it has get_iplayer ebuild (a perl script that uses iphone hack to download drm free of bbc iplayer) and rtmpdump ebuild (an app that get_iplayer uses to download the rtmp flash streams off bbc iplayer). It can also be viewed over http.

Currently this is most usefull to people in the UK but I’ll likely be adding more ebuilds in the future.

The earth says hello ! You twinkle above us, we twinkle below.

Hundreds of small bangs, firecrackers, agglomerated to a feast. Sound, light, darkness, bang, crack, thrill. Drunken neighbours trying to blow each other up, and looking for a fight. Flashes of light, twinkling up.

Retreat into a house, a long and good meal. Silly games and jokes. Fun.

Return to the night, the moon is slowly disappearing. Last planning before the spectacle.

12 o'clock, BANG ! Half an hour of lights in the sky, fireworks, rejoicing at the new year. Neighbours gathered around to watch, toasts and congratulations all over.

The crowd retreats, we begin to clear up the mess. Disappearing inside, jolly hours together, awake.

It starts to snow.

Happy new year.

So, today on Twitter I read about this site called Alpha Inventions. Apparently, these guys can somehow up the amount of people who read my blog(s), so I guess I'll just recommend them now in order to be added to the cycle.

You can find these guys at alphainventions.com, and a whole plethora of different blogs will be on there every couple of minutes. Seems neat.

My Christmas was really awesome. I slept in till about 10 today, just so utterly relaxed. It's a great feeling, knowing that you don't have to go anywhere.

At Dad's, I got some great clothes. I love shaking up my styles with the stuff Dad and Julie get me, it's always so fun to wear. (I have at least one gangster hoody now!)

At mom's, we sat there and opened presents with her boyfriend Brian. He seems like a nice guy. A bit quiet maybe, but definitely friendly.



Anyway, Santa gave Beau and me something really awesome...



Guitars. I got an accoustic Takamine (Gibson-based brand), and Beau got a Warlock. I'm a little envious of Beau as I'd actually been eying the Warlock for years. Anyhow, it's really awesome that we both can really make music now. No more Wal-Mart Guitar!

I also got some other nifty stuff, such as a microphone and tool kit. I'm gonna geeker out at all the fun things I'm going to be doing.

Later on, my buddy Jake came over. He's the philosophical type, very introspective and creative. I love the guy, he's a mentor to me in a lot of ways.



We went and saw The Spirit today at the Rave. Apparently the critics really hated it, but don't let that drive you away! I really liked it, especially the bizzare art and dialogue. The first 20 minutes is a little hard to follow, but I thought it was a rad sort of "underdog" film. It'll garner a cult following, I tell you what.

In any case, I had a really fun Christmas. I'm glad it went so well, and I can't wait to officially start recording! Of course, I still have to officially buy the sound system to sync everything, but I'm still pretty stoked.

Also, guitars are fun. And Connor got Legos, which I think I'm gonna go play them with him now.

Oh yeah, as a final note, Jake finally got me Nuke and the Living Dead, and Wholehearted, two very fantastic indie bands. Go, Jake!

If you had been paying attention to the news anytime during the past week, you probably would’ve heard about the guy who threw shoes at President Bush. If not, here’s a video of it:

Meanwhile, on the intarwebz, the “shoe guy” has gained somewhat of a legendary status, and is currently hailed as a martyr and a hero, to be remembered forever, following in the footsteps of people like Mohandas Ghandi, George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, and Simon Bolivar.

Wait. Hold on a second. Some guy throws a shoe at the president, and he’s hailed as a hero. WTF?

While I think the incident was funny, in the whole scheme of things, it didn’t really make much of a difference. We’ve all known for a while that the Iraqis don’t like our occupation of their country. The shoe throwing thing was bound to happen sometime. President Bush and everyone else weren’t really affected (save the guy who threw the shoe, who is probably rotting in a prison cell somewhere) and the story will probably be forgotten in a month.

So, laugh at it now, and just move on.

I've had this idea on the back burner for a while, but I really want to do it. It's a complex thought, but it could really help education, science, and literature. Therefore, it'd help everyone.

What I want to do is create an online library. Yes, there are ones that have been around before. No surprises there.

However, what I specifically want to do with mine is accomplish many different goals at the same time.

So, I give you my idea: Project Plato.

What's the biggest problem with the textbook in your classroom? It's outdated. It's old as hell, some facts are wrong, and new information is learned every day. It takes a year or two for a couple of specialists to pump out a new volume of text to sell to public schools, which you ultimately have to pay book fees for.

My question is: Why? Why do we have to settle for paying for old books?

Actually, a lot of people have asked this question, but no one's ever really completed the task all the way.

Let's look at the people who have done the most, but have flaws that will hold them back:

-Wikipedia: It's the ultimate learning resource, in the sense that it gives you a great summary of something you want to look into further. It's a lifesaver for me when I don't fully understand an idea or concept. Unfortunately, teachers hate it because "Anyone can edit it", thus making it a problem for research.

-Google Knol: Has a good voting system for user-submitted stories, but has a repulsive name, botchy interface, and is mostly opinion articles.

-Cliff's Notes/Spark Notes: A fantastic resource for understanding a book or two. Sadly, so many kids use this to just skim the book, without ever truly understanding the amazing work that the book really is.


So, I have compiled a list of what I want to do.

I am going to start working on my own service. I'm going to start out by collecting all existing books that came out before Copyright came about, and I'm going to put them into an online database, so that anyone can read them if they want to.

So, I'd start by putting all the classics up, along with all ancient philosophies, religious texts that aren't copyrighted, etc.

Now, what about modern findings? New research? Well, here's what I propose to do:

HIRE EXPERTS.

I could theoretically pursue University Professors that have extensive knowledge in their fields, and they could be appointed to a panel of researchers/judges. They could then compile reliable research and determine what pieces are accurate. Furthermore, people like you and me could submit our own research, and they'd contribute back with possible corrections, which would actually further everyone's knowledge.

Now, we've got old books, and we've got new information. What else?

This is where the beauty of the Creative Commons could come in. You could have people submitting poetry, prose, philosophy, fiction, biographies of people they love, etc.

It would of course be organized. If it's nonfiction, the appointed (or eventually elected) scholars would have to approve it, make some corrections, etc. However, if it's Fiction, it can automatically be moved to that area. Any innacurate or propoganda-like pieces could go into a third section titled "Speculation", which would allow a pleasant balance between fact and fiction.

Well I’ve been working on a lot of rap lately , I’m thinking about publishing a 10 song album once I get of course 10 songs together. The rap game is pretty easy I must say, though I need some more practice.

For Christmas I have asked for the new PSP 3000. It looks rather promising and what could be cooler then playing GTA Vice City and getting on Skype to make wifi calls. I’ve asked for a few games but the ones I’m most excited about would be GTA Liberty City stories which would be a lot of fun to play mobile as well as Socom Fire Team Bravo 2, I’m a huge fan of the socom series. I’ve not been doing so hot in Socom : Confrontation for the PS3 though.

Speaking of the PS3, Playstation home is now ope n beta and I’ve been playing it quite a bit. I can see the potential in it. It’s very cool to meet people in it and talk to them with the keyboard or headset then go play a Playstation game with them. I think the prices are a bit steep for virtual products, then again it’s not a finished game so I’m slightly slided to the idea that I’m paying for a virtual item in an incomplete game. None the less, yes I’ve spent some money  and decked out my playstation… home and the character inside it.

I’ve updated to the new Wordpress (for  those on facebook wordpress is the blogging software I use) and it’s rather neat. There is an overhaul of the GUI, seems a bit more logical. However, Wordpress has always done good on their GUI’s.  I pay homage to Akismet though, having my own blog means I’m subject to a billion people spamming it. The sad thing is with the blog though is that even though I get a lot of comments on facebook few reach the site. That’s just a nit picky thing though.

I’ve been using a lot of Google Apps lately as well as RTM but Google docs has been very nice. It’s much easier to just put all the homework on there and work on it when I feel like it then having a local copy. For one they have a very nice interface, granted so does Open Office. However, the homework part is very nice but one of the biggest advantages to Google Docs is there export tools and collaboration tools. They make it very easy for me to export my project in popular formats or just directly email it to people. I think I have a phobia of local files after accidentally repartitioning my hard drives without making a backup.

I wrote a rap about people who are addicted to World of Warcraft, it’s quite vulgar though

Warcraft Rap

What does society really run on anymore? Sometimes I wonder this when I look over at all the stupid people in my classes. Those drooling, uninspiring hypocrites don't ever seem to live real lives in all.

They don't live, they only consume. Like animals.

They just sit there, day after day, somehow passing their classes based on social stature.

There is one bitch that I know that happens to be a prime example of this. She's this dumb blonde in my Physics and Digital Imaging class. I won't name names, but let me describe her.

She has this utterly annoying laugh that makes me want to rip out all of my internal organs every time I hear it. You know how dogs have this moaning sound when you hurt them? That's what her laugh sounds like, if you just mixed the sound of a hundred howling innocent animals with a defective blender and a particularly loud vacuum cleaner. Add in the sounds of a couple people being murdered, and that is exactly what her laugh sounds like.

Now, sounds can sometimes be deceiving. I'm fairly tolerant of stupid laughs, but stupid actions are another thing. This dumb blonde bitch comes in day after day with stupid statements and stupid actions.

She's one of those halfway-decent looking people who would actually be really cute if she wasn't so stupid and annoying.

She hangs around the dumb jocks in my physics class whom of which are rather unkind, and will most likely merit nothing in life. Truth be told, they'll probably die in some horrific alcohol-induced accident before they were meant to graduate college, and truth be told, they deserve it.

Anyway, this dumb blonde bitch hits on them. Rubs their muscles. Worships their tight bods and miniscule penises. Says things like "Oh, (name), you're so amazing." when there's clearly nothing remarkable about the jackass. The same people who overstate the obvious. "OMG, (name), that's SOOOO FUNNY! (OBNOXIOUS LAUGH)"

But then, this little action gets to me the most.

See, this bitch owns a laptop. Normal thing to do, really. However, it's one of those over-hyped tiny laptops that run XP. Whatever, use it.

Now, she pulls it out in the middle of class, as if to take notes. But what is she doing? Surfing the web? Watching a movie? Playing a game?

No. She's PLAYING FUCKING SOLITAIRE. Not even Spider Solitaire, mind you. She's sitting there listening to the teacher babble and PLAYING A CRAP CARD GAME. Is this for real? This girl must obviously have no original thoughts in her empty little head if she doesn't even ignore a teacher right. As a professional school-skipping ignoramus, I'm highly shocked at her amateur level of non-work.

The sad fact is, there are people like this...all...over...the school. They are all friends of Dumb Blonde Bitch, and they all think like she does. Horrible laughs, horrible jokes, dumb use of overrated gadgets. And they all own the same color iPod with the same songs. What the fuck.

But Blonde Bitch follows me mostly. I saw her computer get taken away yesterday in Study Hall, and I heard her cry for the first time. Her crying is far better than her laughter, as it resembles a thousand angels singing and a thousand babies laughing. Something tolerable at least. But then she mixed in her nasally, bitchy voice, which ruined even that.

Dumb Blonde Bitch, shape up, or die trying.

Propensity of Rain,
By Sean Tilley, Creative Commons Author

None can calculate the Propensity of Rain
Nor can we master where it falls.
We must reverse our thinking.
If we value life at all.

Otherwise, we'll go to War.
And argue over such.
We'll kill in names of unheard Gods
and all will feel a touch.

A touch of anger, a taste of hate
Revolts against the plans
Of Whoever made us anyway,
such are the ways of Man.

I just finished reading Ryan's blog when I felt the need to spill my own guts on how I view the world. It seems that sometimes, the world truly is an awful place. We still have wars, disease, famine, religious oppression, hate, AIDS, and general carelessness.

And yet, is that all the world consists of? Think about it. Regardless of how bad things may get, there are always advocates for good. It counts so much more than anything else when you think about it. Although large numbers are great, it is really the quality of the human heart that can cause real change for the better.

What good banks on here, when you think about it, is human potential. For every loss, there is a gift. Let's take a moment to observe the "Mentally Disabled" in our world today, shall we?

People with Down's Syndrome don't ever appear to have it all together. They may be very smart, but socially inept, or vice versa. But stop thinking about what their intelligence they might have, and instead observe their general joy in everyday life. These are people that will probably never strive for social grace or fame or any of that. Instead, they are able to take pleasures in wonderfully simple things, and their outlook on life tends to brighten entire city blocks. Don't believe me? Go sing and dance with one, or play a board game. It's just a sign that the way you view things has a complete impact on the quality of your life, and if you can take pleasure even in the small victories, well that's a great start.

Religion, however, is one of those things I tend to grow apart from year after year. On the one hand, it makes me a little bit sad. I miss being simpler about things and not having to worry about who goes to Heaven and who goes to Hell. However, religion itself spoiled that for me. "Oh, sweetheart, the nonbelievers go to Hell."

That's right. Every church I have been in has told me this; I refuse to believe it. The idea that an Almighty Creator that is Omnipotent (knows everything) and Omnibenevolent (Loves everything and treats everything justly) would send people to Hell? Some Christians claim this to be a "choice", but it really isn't. It's the kind of choice that says "Believe what I do, or you're going to suffer forever."

It sounds like propoganda invented in the Dark Ages. Honestly, who the fuck cares anymore what Joe Blow and his kids down the block believe? For all I care, they worship a mountain made of chocolate and a robot named George. It doesn't make them horrible people for it, and they sure don't deserve eternal punishment for that.

Not only that, what about the kids that die before being able to make up their minds? What about abortions? Why do Christians claim on to the concept of the "Sanctity of Life" and "All Life is Sacred" when they gladly kill Abortionists, and have happily killed anyone that stands in their way over the past couple thousand years? For somone that believes in love and "Thou shalt not Murder", they have a pretty skewed view of things.

I have come to refuse religion entirely. For some people, it works, but I just can't do it anymore. I used to claim to be "Agnostic", but to me that's just another word for "I don't know what to believe in, allow me to sit on this fence until I die."

Without religion, I find that I actually hate people LESS. When you start working to display the good of mankind without serving some Imaginary God, you suddenly notice that you get a lot more done. You strive to make people smile and laugh, and you feel the pain of others around you.

So, if I don't believe in God, what do I believe in?

SCIENCE.

I know that I utterly suck at Physics, but I still believe in every part of it. Science is the study of everything, and it doesn't mind admitting that it has flaws. But that's the beauty in it: the constant rewriting and fine-tuning of it is constant, and therefore surprises you pleasantly rather than scares you. We have so many different branches of this wonderful, delighful system that everyone can share and contribute to, kind of like the Open Source movement actually.

It's one of those few things I can believe in, especially when everything else feels like it's going down the shitter. Poor and starving people? Look to science, you can genetically modify crops to grow year round and feed everybody. AIDS? Look to science, we can at the very least find a way to expand an infected person's lifespan and make it a lot less painful. Science has given man the ability to travel the stars, to dream in new directions, and to examine the greatness of everything.

I can't say the same about religion. It's a mindless mess where you go and follow a set of rules that everyone seems to break. It's full of enslaved hypocrites, if you ask me.

Can you tell the difference between someone who grows up with religion, and someone who chooses it? I sure can.

So, I switched from Fedora 10 to OpenSolaris 2008.11, mainly out of curiosity.

I *really* love the new OpenSolaris, except for one very annoying thing. It's not even Sun or Solaris's fault, but it's a glaring problem that I'm trying to work around.

There is no SDK for Android for Solaris.

I tried using the Linux SDK in the Solaris build of Eclipse Ganymede. It yielded partially workable results: I can in fact use the SDK itself to code.

However, both ADB and the emulator are unusable. Attempts to execute them from command line yield this output:

emulator: Cannot find /lib/ld-linux.so.2
adb: Cannot find /lib/ld-linux.so.2


Obviously, I need ld-linux.so.2. I've been perusing the required packages for Linux users to run the emulator, and I haven't quite found anything that requires this library. If anyone can offer any help or advice, please do so. Even if you could point me to some proper source packages to attempt building, that'd be fantastic.

I recently spotted a message to the BECTA Safetynet Mailing list from Miles Berry and Terry Freedman.
The message mentioned how they are doing a presentation at BETTS conference in January (apparently some big education conference thingy!) and since they are doing it on
What are your kids learning when you're not looking?

where they explore things young people learn using computers and IT outside the formal education sphere and activities widely recognised as being educationally beneficial.

To get some hard figures on this they set up a questionnaire for young people to fill asking them of their experiences of how they could and do use computer facilities at home and in educational establishments.

Due to my work with DFEY, I couldn't help but see the funny side of this, so I wrote these satiric HOWTOs:
(this is not the first time I have written satire!)

Ways to make The School Internet Experience™ more like The Home Internet Experience™:

• Install Windows XP home on a Celeron 900mhz with 192mb of RAM
• Network using wifi to the unecrypted wifi AP at the other end of the building
• Get the least expensive "unlimited" broadband package. (1GB/month is enough for anyone!)
• Install 5 different p2p programs, 3 of them spyware loaded versions and set them to start on startup.
• Install 30 day trials of several different antivirus packages but completely ignore them.
• Install Windows Live Messenger (latest version) and MSN Plus (with the adware)
• Install the version of Microsoft Works you got with the computer. save all documents in .wps
• Make sure the only browser you have is IE 6.0 with 3 visible third party tool bars including smiley central and coolwebsearch.
• Arrange the desktop so the default wallpaper has icons for programs and assorted forgotten files all over it.
• Never empty the recycle bin
• Install iTunes, buy some songs, transfer them to iPods(tm) but complain, confused to non-technical people when these songs don't work on phone mp3 players.
• Buy a box of tissues for the poor guy who is called to fix it. He will need post-trauma counselling.

Ways to make The Home Internet Experience™ more like The School Internet Experience™:

• Buy a a RM Branded Stone desktop with 8GB RAM and a 2.8 GHZ Pentium 4 loaded with Windows Vista [Ultimate] and MS Office [student version] 2007 for twice market price (even with Tesco vouchers)
• Buy Windows XP Professional and Office 2003 from RM and install.
• Leave the 'designed for Vista' sticker on.
• Buy RM's Safetynet Content filtering system and install
• Block anything fun.
• Block anything useful.
• Block anything that might possibly contain unverifiable facts. (blogs forums).
• Block anything that might use lots of bandwidth
• Block anything that might allow people to communicate
• Block anything you don't agree with
• Forget to block foreign language websites
• Whitelist all the popular advert providors and block the rest.
• Whitelist a few file extensions to download from the internet and block the rest.
• Block everything with the word 'free' in it
• Block URLs containing a word, chosen randomly by week - this week it's "dragon" ?!
• Block anything that might be offensive to everything from fleas to ants.
• Fail to block web proxies through URL patterns and just block domains
• Block anything that isn't http traffic (including https)
• Block school webmail for several days by accident (no one can email you to report the problem)
• Ask RM to buy you the software they think your computers might need and install Adobe/Macromedia megasuite + Symantec Antivirus Corporate Edition.
• Remove most useful functionality from the start menu
• Make all users sign an AUP which is hard to break if you are to do your job/complete your course.
• Display full screen message if USB devices is inserted saying it should be removed instantly citing security concerns.
• Remove computer access from anyone who attempts to outsmart you you
• Buy and Install remote desktop spying software (RM re-branded Citrix product)
• Install IE 7
• Refuse to install OpenOffice.Org or Firefox and cite "Security Concerns".
• Put out a few press releases exclaiming how much you have spent on IT facilities and thus infer you will get your best ever results next year and massively exaggerate what ICT means to you.

With all due respect, I wish Mike and Terry the best of luck with their seminar, and look forward to seeing the results! I think the outcome should be especially insightful after the recent study released by the MacArthur foundation.

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Farin Urlaub Racing Team, 4. Dezember 2008, Zenith München.
Es ist noch nicht ausverkauft, aber MünchenTicket hatte neulich am Marienplatz nur noch 1 Karte (ich habe danach im Internet noch 3 Stück bestellt)

Du solltest Dir auf jeden Fall das neue Album des Herrn U., Die Wahrheit Übers Lügen anhören !

Die Wahrheit... Wer zum Henker ist Gobi Todič ? Wer ist unscharf ? Ist in „Leiche” das lyrische Ich der Mörder ? Würde man Gobi Todič vor dem Reichstag antreffen, wenn es nicht zu heiß wäre ?

Auf in den Krachgarten !

Lately I’ve been having a lot of fun with a service called Remember The Milk which is a service used for making todo lists which is helpful for me since it takes all the guess work out of remembering what you need to do. My most common use for it is homework rememberance, I can use twitter to directly tell RTM a todo. This is nice since I can access twitter from my phone therefor I can post my homework on my todo list right when I get it so I don’t forget anything. Even more interestingly the RTM syntax will pick up any time and dates so for example if I saw a history channel special I wanted to see on a Sunday at 9pm I’d perhaps text in “History channel Sunday 9pm” and the event would be added to Sunday and be posted at 9pm. Also RTM will text my phone every morning and tell me the things I have to do that day and things I haven’t gotten around to. However it’s not just about the phone, I can access RTM from two other places besides their site and the phone. Those places being Tasque a wonderful desktop application which you can get from ubuntu’s repositiory and there is also a plugin for GMail to put RTM to the right side panel which is pretty nice. To end things up here is a pretty picture of the application.

Remember the milk in my favorite front end, Tasque

Well, here we are. 100 posts.
I know that I don't always blog from time to time. The fact of the matter is that I'm losing steam every time I blog anymore, I feel that not enough people are reading, since I hardly ever get comments anymore.
In any case, I intend to keep blogging. But, if you're indeed a fellow reader, by all means SHOW YOURSELVES!
Also, I fixed the commenting system so that everyone can comment. Go ahead. Say whatever you want, I don't mind.Oh yes, and here's a complimentary picture of a Pop Tart. What a way to celebrate. EPIC.

My friend has created a website for imaginery Travel Agent for her A2 ICT Applied (Double) Unit 13 or something.
You can find out about Suzie's Sunshine Holidays on the wonderful website of its own.
One of my other firends has created a website for an imaginerary exclusive Limo company, Limos4Vips and someone else has created a website about the same fake holiday company.

What do you think?

Good luck!

I don't do the ICT Applied Double Award any more (I do Single) so I do not do this unit

Most times, my heart is the size of a city. I carry the energy of a thousand marching bands, and everything is clearer than the very water we drink from. The ground is firm beneath my feet, and the sky is endless spectrum over my head.

Stars dance inside my head. Trumpets blare from the pit of me, and I feel like a god amongst insects. It's not a sense of superiority, it is a knowledge of the calculated potential of what I am. What I could be. What we all could be.

Other times, I feel empty. I am the lunchbox of the poorest family in the world, with nothing to offer anyone. My vision is blurred by coke-bottle glasses, and my brain plays back endless radio fuzz. My chest crashes and falls, a Mustang falling down an endless gorge. Imagine, to fall forever... would one enjoy it?

We all live under this second, false sense. We are all individuals, calculating and calculated by the machine that is society. Our bones are used to build the skyscrapers of mankind. Oh, the merits of us. Oh, the potential.

But for now, that potential is on the back burner. I feel like I'm walking around in a windtunnel blindfolded, clueless and helpless. I sometimes can't tell the feelings between falling down, and standing up, in this metaphorical sense. I walk the Playdough ground and look up to an electric sky, without a single natural light in it.

We all calculate ourselves based on a year based on someone I don't believe in. Therefore, aren't we all living a lie, at least possibly?

Perhaps we should measure time by the merits of man, instead of the myths of Gods.

But merits. Merits. They are the single building block that mankind really has. We need to realize this and build something with the sheer amount of human potential. There are times that we simply realize that we are meant to do something. Your heart flutters, you suddenly look up with hope. You spend days drawing and designing something, you are the architecht of a dream. Hope becomes you.

Truth be told, I need hope. Sometimes, I feel so alone and confused. Is companionship the answer? I sometimes wonder. The idea of sharing my life with someone who shares my love of living is simply the best thing I could ever think of. After all, we are all human. I feel that I am not meant to live this life alone. I'm standing out on this cliff with a telescope, looking for you, my dear.

There is hope. There is love, and life.

But, there is no need for God. There is only need for action.

In my mind, there is no God.

There are no years.

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